To The Sun Moon Stars

If I think really hard, and this is the first time in a long time that I’ve thought about you, I can remember your touch, your taste, the way you made me feel, and the peacefulness of laying by your side without saying anything.  I remember your light touches, your presence, your smile, and your laugh.  You were more to me than I was to you and I was a naive little girl, thinking it could be more than it was or ever would become.  You used me like a dish towel, and you made me believe that there was more to your heart than there actually was.  

I can’t listen to your music anymore, your rawness showing through the lyrics that I will never forget, “People come and people go, but we all share just one soul.” I saw your heart for a brief moment, and now that moment’s gone. I lived in that moment and living in the moment proved to knock me down, because I was lustful and infatuated and gave myself away to you which I should never have done.  You twisted me into allowing myself to feel for you, to weep for you, and to give myself away to you.  

I miss that moment, in between the sheets, looking at you, smelling you, listening to you, and watching you watch me.  Know that I will never forget you and the short time we had with each other.  And I learned from the experience I had with you, and I guess your quote is right, people come and and people go, but we all share just one soul. I believe that. 

“In the grand scheme of things, it’s not a big deal, I just needed to vent. And there it is.” 

Random night, 2:23am. 

Can’t seem to fall asleep…a bit nervous, anxious, wondering, feeling, thinking, believing, hoping, praying. 

I feel the cool night’s breeze through my open window, slightly brushing my arm, my face, my lips. It smells like a summer breeze. I’m nestled in between my sheets and it feels so good I never want to get out of bed. 

God grant me the serenity 

to accept the things I cannot change;

courage to change the things I can; 

and the wisdom to know the difference. 

Living one day at a time;

Enjoying the moment as a time; 

Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace.